Starting A Course !!! - but leaving the children :-(

Well I’m super excited and a wee bit anxious. I have been looking into going back to college to do a full-time course. I’m hoping to get onto a Childcare course, but there’s a possibility I might not be able to get on that course this September in which case I could be offered a Digital Media course and then I will have the option to do the childcare course the following year.  If I have to do the Digital Media Course first it wouldn’t be a bad thing,  I would actually find it interesting as it involves digital photography, desktop publishing and website design, which would definitely be beneficial in the world of Blogging. :-)

 After spending the last 2 ½ years at home and having the two babies and spending all day every day with the two little ones, they will now be going into a crèche for 6 ½ hrs a day :-Z. I am not too worried about Jack I think he will love it and I think it will do him good to be around other children as he gets bored easily at home. Although, we have spent almost every day together for the last 2 ½ years and we are both so use to being with each other every day, I do worry how this huge change will effect him (and me) and our relationship.  And then the thought of leaving my little lady she still seems soooo small.  When I start the course she will be almost a year old. It’s just going to be a huge change and I am definitely feeling quite anxious about being away from the two kiddies for most of the day.

I know people do this all the time, they have to go back to work etc.. and I know I need to do this to help me get some of my identity back and enable me to work in a job that I want to work in and hopefully be able to work around the children and not the other way round. It will also do me good to be around other adults, I’m getting to the point where I’m forgetting  how to have an adult conversation or talk about anything else but the children.. I suppose the other good thing is the course is 9.30 – 4.30 and it runs in the school terms so I will get time off in the school holidays and the course is only September to May . I know it’s something I have to do it just feels a little daunting  being away from the children. Has anyone else gone through similar experience where they have had to return to work or study full-time after being at home with the children full-time for a long amount of time.